I’ve traveled the world playing tournaments for a little bit. Won a few. Crashed out in some others…

The big conventions feel insanely cool. It’s like you’re in the game but irl. You are walking down the elevator of your hotel and it feels like just being in the game when you are surrounded by people that you with. It’s super cool having people come up and hug you and you go “oh who’s this?” And it often turns out it’s people that you have shared hundreds of hours with.

The actual competition I’ve always felt it’s all about who can play the least bad. As far as I could tell. Everyone plays worse on stage. For a multitude of reasons. At the end I was playing extremely chill and care free and it showed in the results.

Also something less obvious. Tournaments always developed their own meta. Which I always heard comments from people from home “why didn’t you follow this meta thing. Why did you play such weird strategies?”. It’s because truly if there’s a big competition going on. Everyone good is there. And it’s not even worth getting practice on the normal servers. You have to scrim over and over the people there and that develops its own meta.

Is it worth it? Uhhh. I’ll always cherish those memories. They were truly great years. But I would say for me nah. Not worth it. I’ve always wanted my career and life to be about some other things. And as much fun and surprisingly how well it all paid. I don’t think it was worth the many years I spent doing that and nothing else.

Amazing memories though.

I’ve been using arch since archinstall came out. I never installed it reading the wiki.

I sleep like a baby and everything works.

Oof. Hard to say. I did it for so long and so early in life that I’m not even sure what would have happened had I not done it.

I don’t like mental meds though. And I don’t think any of them ever helped me. They have always either made me extremely risky behavior prone or just numb where the days blend together and months go by in the blink of an eye.

I was still a kid. At my first session I opened up hard. I spoke nonstop for the whole hour.

When I was walking out I asked them “now what?” And they replied “Now it’s a long battle”.

That stuck with me.

What are we going to do about it?

Quit whining about it and make a good community outside of those.

Be a good community member yourself.

I see myself coming less and less to Lemmy due to how monotopic this place is. And how aggressively stupid people here can be.

Is Lemmy dead?

I mean. Yeah ? Can you imagine any large companies investing in this in any way? I sure can’t.

I don’t see how what they said was contradictory. VR gaming is indeed dead. And Linux gaming with 5 times less users is also even more dead.

There’s a reason why game devs completely ignore Linux as a platform.